“In some ways, coming to terms with myself and working toward recovery has been like saying “I love you” to someone but keeping a loaded gun hidden in your back pocket, just in case that person pisses you off enough.” ~ Kiera Van Gelder So, those of you who follow me on Twitter may know that I've… Continue reading What’s It Like Being A Borderline?
“PTSD is a whole-body tragedy, an integral human event of enormous proportions with massive repercussions.” ~ Susan Pease Banitt Facebook reminded me last week that it was four years to the day since my mental health coming out party. Or as I titled the event at the time my Taking Down My Christmas Tree Party. Because… Continue reading My Mental Health ‘Coming Out’ Party
“It's my experience that people are a lot more sympathetic if they can see you hurting, and for the millionth time in my life I wish for measles or smallpox or some other easily understood disease just to make it easier on me and also on them.” ~ Jennifer Niven Mental illness is not... > ...your… Continue reading Mental Illness Is Not…
(Getty Images) “Bad enough to be ill, but to feel compelled to deny the very thing that, in its worst and most active state, defines you is agony indeed.” ~ Sally Brampton Some time earlier this year, I can't remember exactly when, around the time that Germanwings pilot deliberately crashed his plane, I decided that I… Continue reading Start A Conversation Today
"Depression isn't a sign of weakness, it's a sign that you've been strong for too long." ~ Elizabeth Gilbert "The strongest people are not those who show strength in front of us but those who win battles we know nothing about." "The struggle you're in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow. Don't… Continue reading Depression Is No More About Strength Than it Is About Weakness
I'm not going to China. I couldn't get a working visa. I'm not sure what I'm going to do instead. I'm currently in the process of applying for almost every job in the country, and one or two abroad. Also considering going back to university to get more qualified, because I know I need a… Continue reading I’m Not Going To China
"The discovery of truth is prevented more effectively, not by the false appearance things present and which mislead into error, not directly by weakness of the reasoning powers, but by preconceived opinion, by prejudice." ~ Arthur Schopenhauer When I studied for my sociology A Level our teacher always used to say that if we were… Continue reading Sub-Cultured
I went to another meeting today, an appeal hearing, to discuss the ongoing saga of my grievance against my employer. At least I think it was me. And yet somehow I was the only person in the room that I didn't recognise. There was the woman from HR, my manager's manager, and this strange quiet,… Continue reading Who Am I?
(Getty Images/James Bray/Vetta) During my most recent bout of depression one person in particular has been convinced that if I only looked at the world in the same way he did then everything would be fine. Everyone has bad days he said, bad stuff happens to everybody, you just have to focus on the positives.… Continue reading You’re Depressed, I Have Depression – Here’s The Difference…
At times I'm a little bit nuts. I have depression and complex PTSD. The most frequent response I get when I tell people that I'm ill is, "No you're not." I am, really, I have a psychiatrist and everything. But I don't fit the caricature of a person with a mental health problem. My hair… Continue reading Going Slightly Mad