“There are risks to antidepressant treatment, but the risks of untreated depression are worse.” ~ John Bailey
So, the second time I was sick enough to start taking medication the first one they put me on was duloxetine – brand name Cymbalta.
This was after I’d taken an overdose and then begun self harming.
The reason that they put me on duloxetine rather the mirtazapine that had worked for me previously was that duloxetine doesn’t cause excessive somnolence. They thought it was better to give me a drug that didn’t have the same side effect that made me stop taking the last one without consulting a doctor first.
Which isn’t entirely unreasonable I suppose.
The only problem was that while the duloxetine didn’t make me excessively sleepy, it didn’t do much of anything else for me either.
Oh, except suppress my appetite.
I lost quite a bit of weight over the three or four months that I was taking it.
Not that the benefits lasted long as I put it all back on and then some once I switched back over to mirtazapine because the duloxetine wasn’t working.
But that was pretty much it.
It made me less hungry, it didn’t make me any less depressed. Or any less anxious. Or any less dissociative. Or any better able to get through a whole night of sleep.
In fact my depression got worse, and the frequency of my panic attacks and self injuring increased while I was taking the duloxetine.
I had to take a lot of diazepam and zopiclone as well to keep me just barely hanging on.
I mean, I can’t say I had a bad experience with it; I had a truly awful, awful time, one of the worst, but that was on account of the mental illness, the duloxetine just didn’t do anything to help with it.
So, yeah, I’m not sure I’d ever let them put me on that one again.
Have you ever tried it? How did you find it?