For those who don’t already know, the mirtazapine referred to in the title is an antidepressant drug. It belongs to a category of noradrenergic and specific serotonergic antidepressants. This basically means that it works to increase the amounts of noradereneline and serotonin in your brain, which in turn work to regulate your mood and hopefully lift you out of your depression.
I’ve been on it for about six weeks and it’s the only thing that’s really worked for me. Other types of anti depressants either didn’t treat the whole range of my symptoms or turned my brain to treacle.
For the first two weeks taking this was like taking marijuana in tablet form. I just couldn’t stop eating, and the relief from suddenly being able to feel anything again was immense.
Since then I’ve felt like I’m on a roller coaster, or that I’ve developed really rapid cycling bipolar. This morning I was all exited for my trip to visit my friend in his new place in France next month. This evening, for no particular reason, I’ve been so enraged I could have pulled this building down stone by stone and it wouldn’t have made me feel any better.
Now the mirtazapine is making me feel again, I have to feel all of the feelings that I’ve been avoiding all my life.
It’s a full time job, as there are far too many of them to regulate effectively. Which is why I also need three different kinds of therapy. But I feel like I have ‘Me’ back for the first time in years, and it’s wonderful.
For me, mirtazapine is a wonder drug.